~Fall Right Back~


Eyes meet eyes,

Stars shine brighter.

An intoxicating fragrance.

Breeze is getting smoother.

Crispy leaves of fall.

Sweetness in the form of lips.

My mind has grown

A mind of its own,

When our eyes met.

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Knowing your presence,

Hearing your footsteps,

Believing in your existence,

On my shoulder, now your head rests.

Our hearts beat faster.

Our breathing quickens.

Promising something new,

Blood rushes through our veins.

I’m falling right back in love,

Knowing your presence.

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Everyday, Every Night


***

Chaos all around.
Humble orders and stern requests,
Friendly gazes and intruding stares,
Wants to chew me in,
Everyday,
And throw me out,
Every night.
Into my bed.

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Peace is in your thoughts.
You are part of my mind.
You are part of my soul.
You are my oasis like nights.
Every breath with you,
Fills me in.
Your every word,
Makes me a better man.

***

I am not of my own.
I am always inside,
But my mind is not.
I listen, but I don’t.
I write, but I don’t.
I see, but I don’t.
I feel and yes I feel.
For I feel only about you.

***
Chaos all around.
Simple people and twisted plots.
Short notices and longer waits.
Fortunate accidents and ill fated days.
Chaos is in my mind,
Chaos rooted deep in my flesh.
Chaos is not at my heart,
For you don’t share your room with it.

~Things We Do For Love~


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For more than five months I have posted nothing. Because I could not write anything in those months. I did not finish reading a single book in 2014. I almost stopped listening to music. I paid less attention to my work. I was not and am not the same person I used to be.

This is an unusual tale that I am going to write here. An extra ordinary tale from an ordinary person’s life. All this time I was preparing for something. It was like I was surviving reality barely and preparing my spirit to make a dream come true. A dream  so big that at times I have myself doubted if it would ever come true.

But it did.

I met a girl on the internet. We became friends. We have been talking for like a year now…and we want to meet. Her family knows about me too. That is why I want to go there..to meet her and her family.”  – That is what I told the officer to whom I submitted my visa application.

It got rejected for the first time.

Not many people decide to travel 6,500 Kilometers to meet a girl they have met on the internet.

I met her on Facebook. She saw my photo on her friends suggestion and felt like she should open my profile and check it. As per her words when she saw my photo, it was like, she could only see that photo on the page and rest was a blur. She was not sure if I would accept friend request from unknown persons. So all she did , she opened up my picture and liked it.

I thought that the recent like that I got from an unknown “foreign” girl – was definitely from a fake profile.

I ignored it.

A few days after I noticed that there was nothing more – no friend requests or likes from this girl, I felt like there was a possibility of this girl being a genuine one. I opened her profile and liked her profile picture too. It was a nice one. Not hot and cheeky rather pretty & graceful. The way I like girls.

She sent me a friend request and we started talking. We became good friends.

We would talk each other all the time. I would wake up to her messages and she would go to sleep reading my messages. We would share pictures and stories.

Then she told me she wants to meet me. She knows meeting in person would not be possible right now but she wanted to see me on Skype.

I have never Skyped with a person I have not met personally before. I was scared thinking about how awkward it will be, I was scared of many things. How I would look, how my voice would sound, if I would be able to understand what she speaks or not.

So we skyped for the first time. I was awkward as usual. She was smiling and laughing like a happy little girl!

I was awkward but I was happy.

That was the first of our many Skype encounters. We would catch up every weekend and on the middle of the week too if I would have a day off.  We would never feel bored while talking to each other and with time we became more and more free with each other. I have never felt this free with any of my friends before. I have always been a distant, strange and weird guy to the girls and I believe even to those few girls I have dated, my image remains same.

Then we decided to meet. First we were thinking about meeting in a country which is in between our countries. I was thinking how awkward it would be to go meet her and her family at the same time. I was free with her but I saw her family for a few times on Skype. I am not the kind of person who speaks a lot and gets along very well with people who they have met recently.

But then I decided I should travel to her country. I imagined myself at her parent’s situation. Its not a easy decision to let your daughter go to a different country to meet a guy who she has met on the internet. I thought if I would go there I could meet her and her family at the same time. I could see her place. I wanted to do all of these. If I meet her someplace else then I would again have to buy tickets and travel to meet her family.

So I traveled 6,500 kilometers to meet a girl I have met on Facebook.

Getting the tickets, visa and traveling alone were not easy tasks. This was the first time I got a visa and traveled to another country – my first international flight. I was scared to do all of this.

But I was more scared of the idea of not seeing her, not being with her.

Never in my life I have ever wanted something so bad.

All of the journey and my time spent there with her is a story that will take a lot more words. I think I will write about that too. Because our story is unusual and at times it is far more interesting than reality.

Now I am back in  my country. She will be coming to visit my place soon. People are asking whats next. How we plan to stay together.

When I added her on Skype, I noticed there was written something in her language at her Skype status field. I learned what was written there. She told that she put those words as her status a year before or so. I felt that we have been waiting for each other all our lives and we always knew that we existed in our minds.

Ja tu necīnies par to, ko vēlies, tad neraudi par to, ko zaudē.

“If you don’t try hard for what you want, why do you cry then?”

This journey has taught me one thing – sometimes you need to make a choice and prepare yourself to pay any price to life in order to stick to your choice.

We have made our choices. We want to stay together.

The things we will have to do for love will pay the price that we have to pay in order to stick to our choice.

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~Things We Know~


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We did not choose –

Where we were born

And What we were born with.

Not the colors of our skins,

Not the names & surnames.

Not the Gods we prayed.

Not the flags we saluted.

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We grow up-

Learn to expect

maximum out of minimum

And want to spend

more hours dreaming and take

only a few hard minutes

To give up on our dreams.

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We grow old-

We judge our time spent

By what all we did

That seems right

Because the outcome

Is always familiar.

Never knowing what else was there, too.

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It was one in a million-

chance that I met you.

Could not have as

We did not know what separated us.

Now there is space & time,

Now there is money & Gods.

Things we know we can overcome.

~ Need help! Urgent! Please help me out with this! ~


Today morning, I wrote to the person I madly love – “I just want you to know that there are very few changes I will not go through for you”. English is neither her or my first language but its the only language that we both understand. I think she misunderstood what I wrote. Can you guys please explain what does “I just want you to know that there are very few changes I will not go through for you” mean on the comments to this post?

I should not have used a double negative! I should not have! Please help me out fellows. I tried to find examples of double negatives over the internet but could not find a single one which starts with a “There” and has “few” in the middle.

God bless you.

~ Right Now and Always~


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I want to be with you.

Right Now.

Even if you don’t notice my presence,

Even if you are busy at work,

I want to be around you.

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I want to be with you

Right Now.

Even if you fall asleep beside me.

Even if you are talking to someone else.

I want to be around you.

Right Now.

***

I want to be with you.

Right Now.

When you are working hard in your club.

When you are driving back home.

I want to be around you.

Right Now.

***

I want to be with you

Always.

Even If I need to forget the world I know.

Even If I need to forget my home.

I want to be around you.

Always.

~ When a Dream Comes True~


Dream

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Knowing you is like looking into a mirror

and seeing a better reflection.

For you are, my love,

better than all my dreams

and finer than the owner of these eyes,

Who dreamed when he was alone.

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In the darkness of the moonless nights,

In the brightness of the bright Summer mornings,

He dreamed by the roaring seas.

He dreamed by the silent mountains

and he waited for another being

But never did he search for a single moment.

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He waited for days after days

Months after months and years after years.

He waited to meet his shadow.

Not a single day did he search,

For one does not search for another

When one has never lost another.

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I knew you existed in the moonless nights.

I knew you enjoyed the bright summer mornings.

I could hear your heart beat by the roaring seas

and I could hear your sighs in the silent mountains.

I waited for us to meet and never did I search for you, as I knew,

My love, I’ve always been yours and you’ve always been mine.

~ About a Girl ~


/* I wrote this about “someone” who read it and liked it. I am putting it up here so it stays forever. */

/* I met her. She met me. We love each other. We have dreams.*/

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Stars they shine so bright,
The sun, it looks glorious
Only if you can take a look at it with your eyes.
Comets they come and go
Crossing the night sky with a sudden glow
But its her, my eyes search ,when I am looking up to the sky.

I dare not say a word about what she looks like.
For I don’t know a word that is as beautiful as she is.
But I can write how I feel when I look into her dark deep eyes.
Its like taking a look into a mirror and seeing someone I have never seen.
Its like feeling weightless when I fall, She is without and within.
That’s how I feel When I think of her-my answer, the moon personified.

~Paradise Bound~


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The burning Sun returns every morning

We wake ourselves up

To get prepared for lives we have been living.

Race to earn the cheese from a mousetrap.

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I could not learn what I loved

So I taught myself to love what I must do.

Its the same everyday.

Every night its different with you.

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I survive what the day throws at me.

I bear with when I cannot get through.

Back in mind I know the Sun shall set.

Night is going to bring me you.

****

We make love like its our first time.

Then we make love once more like it’s our last.

We love, we hurt, we cry and we laugh

In each others arm safely we fall apart.

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I could give up all my days for one long night.

I could give up my life to your hundred lies.

You break me, you wreck me and you make me feel alright.

For you, my love, are my ‘Kazbek’ paradise.